I like to be dramatic every now and then… but in case you’re asking, yes, I am a nervous wreck. I’m just being honest.
While I think that we can stand up for what we believe in, we all can’t be blamed for having just a little bit of paranoia. If you’ve known me long enough, though, you probably know that I’m not exactly the poster boy for calm under pressure. Here’s how things stood for me so far today:
- After breakfast at the office, I wrote a little note on a piece of scrap paper that was to be my scripted speech when the time came that I’ll call my dad to explain that I signed the intervention filed in Congress yesterday. I managed about two sentences of a rather dramatic script when my dad said, “Whatever your convictions are and if you stand by them, good for you.” OK, so much for the note.
- I was supposed to go to lunch with my friends at the office, but I was so nervous that I decided to smoke first. I completely forgot about lunch. And cigarette breaks.
- I forgot to switch my cellphone to “Silent” mode, so every text message made me jumpy today. I was expecting my messages today to be more of the negative sort, until I realized that my friends read the paper more than I think. It’s amazing how you have your friends figured out one day, and you realize how much they really care for the future of this nation. Perhaps even more than you do.
Yes, I’ve been shaky today. I think it’s because I signed a document that I wholeheartedly believe in; I believe that President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo should be answerable to the public because of the dire consequences and compromises of the BJE-MOA-AD. The full weight of impeaching the President is somewhere on my shoulders right now.